It’s time to get back to basics – for me. I am getting close to having the majority of my new home construction under control. I can see the bed in the the second bedroom.
As I take stock of the pattern of my life these days – I see little pattern. I have been ‘living in the moment’, living from ‘moment to moment’, and from a perspective of anticipating change in the next moment. There is no negative judgment of this patternless pattern, but my little list-writing self feels that I have been at-sea long enough.
The term “shake-down” most recently entered my vocabulary as a descriptive for making sure nothing is loose in the airplane, one of my husband’s tasks at work. As creatures of habit – where habit and predictability are soothing – frequently it is good to experience a ‘shake-down’. Why good? Because loose stuff falls off and into places where it can be seen, evaluated, tossed, or reattached. Most of the stuff that appears on a shake-down is expected, but once in a while something surprising or necessary shows up and must be reconsidered.
We’ve been doing a great deal of shaking in the past 3 and one-half months. Many things that have appeared by design or surprise are now gone, replaced, repaired or reattached. Life is ready for a more predictable pattern again. I’m ready to begin the process of uncovering that new pattern which is likely to emulate the shake-down in that while some things are different, they are also likely to be very much the same. In therapy, the term is homeostasis – the propensity of a thing, once disturbed, to return to it’s original configuration. While homeostasis can’t happen exactly any more after our big move to Washington, I’m ready to see the new pattern our shake-down has produced.